Happy birthday Nain

It was my Nain's birthday today, or would have been had she been alive still. I miss her. I'm going to go and visit her on the 14th, the anniversary of whenn she passed away. I've got her a duck, like last year, I think she would have liked that.

Strangely, I'm getting on with my mum a bit better. I know that she can be annoying, and she treats me likea kid, but I love her all the same, She's my mum, and I've out her through a lot of stress over the years. I'm sorry mum for being such an ungratefyl bitch at times, you wind me up, but you don't deserve some of the things I've said about you. Thank you for loving me. And you too Dad, tho I'm definately not as mean to you... xxx

Went to see sweeney Todd today..it's a musical, and Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham-Carter are ace in it... they have to be two of the most bbeautiful people in the world. HBC is agelessly gorgeous.... It's not bad as a film either, worth a watch.

Just one thing before I go, can people not post anonymous comments please, it's slightly irritating, if you post and I know you, leave a name so I knnow who it is, if I don't know you, introduce yourself. Thanks people...I don't mind you commenting, just say who you are!

Anyway, it's late and I'm getting a cold, so I'm off to bed...

Incidentally, I've tried counselling and I hated it, it made me feel worse about myself than I did before. And I refuse to go on antidepressants againn, because I want to be able to actually think, and not feel like I'm not really there. If it's a choice between pills that make you numb, or feeling like this, I'd rather feel like this...Provided I don't start feeling harmful, I'm willing toeide this out. The moment that changes, I'll be hammering on the doctor's door for space-pills...Don't you worry.

Right, I'm really going now... night night.