Nightmares

So I got some nytols. They can cause some scary shit those things, but only if you take too many, so as I don't want hallucinations or heart attacks, I'm going to stick to the one a night.

Did have some nasty nightmares last night tho. Going on the run with nasty huge police dogs with red eyes chasing me, bring locked in a cell with hungry wolves turning into a cursed person, where everyone I touched burned away to dust in front of me. It might have been the nytol that gave me nightmares, or the fact that I got a bit stoned with Terry in the afternoon. or the fact that things are preying on my mind at the moment, but most likely a combination of all three. I'm trying the nytols again tonight, see how they go. I have to say they're good at making you fall asleep. I took one twenty minutes ago, and I'm almost falling asleep at my keyboard.

I have eaten nothing but crap this weekend.

I really do think I am cursed. Bad things happen to people I love. Look at what I did to Pete, and Gaz before him was crippled by back pain...ok so tecnically that happened before I arrived on the scene, but it got worse when I was around and when he got rid of me he amazingly suddenly got an operation to fix it. Look at the state Gary is in, and now Sam, My mum and Dad aren't having the best run of health at the momrnt, my brother is acccident prone, and even my best mate who I hardly see is having health issues. There's too many other little issues that I can count...And some other big things that go wrong. I'm like the cursed woman on Nightwatch... Possibly a bit of an obscure reference there as the film is Russian and is filmed with subtitles they were supposed to be doing a sequel called Daywatch, but I havent seen it yet.

I think my mind is starting to wander slightly so I'm off to bed. Hopefully a nightmare free refreshing sleep.