Giving up
So I log on today, after christmas, had a great christmas by the way...full of happiness.
And I find a comment...
And I guess thats my best mate giving up on me.
What she doesn't see is how I have been over the past weeks, how much happier I've been, and how hard I've been trying and how much healthier I feel.
She assumes I am self destructing.
Well I'm not about to explain myself to anyone.
I'm happy right now...a little stressed perhaps, but happy.
And it all comes down to choices and moderation.
I've made my choices, and I'm being moderate and sensible.
I'm not stupid. Whatever you think of me and how I'm living my life...that fact is still true. Please don't treat me like I am.
1 Comments:
ok I said I wouldn't read.. so I'm weak willed..I'm truly glad that you are happy, and that you had a good Christmas. But read back over your recent posts and think about what they would do to anyone who cares about you- they are full of pain, misery, depression and general unplesatness. I accept that is is your right to use your blog as therapy,but the problem with that is that people like me who don't have any other contact with you only see the bad side of your life and it is very painful. My blog started off as therapy, but when people started reading it regularly I stopped filling it with my pain. Mostly that was ok cos I was happy, but recently when I got depressed I really missed having an outlet. So that is why I said I wouldn't read anymore. And as to giving up on you, I wish you happiness as I always have, but I can't condone drugs or cigarettes... I am scared that I am going to loose someone I care about at a young age for a stupid reason. But as you point out, it's your life and you make your own choices. I'll be back soon, maybe we can get together and have a laugh and everything will be normal.. but if you don't want that then that is your choice too. Stay happy.
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