Shit
So I have to have a medical procedure on my eyes...involving general anasthetic, steroid injections to the eyeballs and laser treatment. It should prevent me going blind. It could well however reduce my vision.
I'm kinda depressed.
I have broken Allan's heart a bit more.
The Pete situation seems to have stabilised to slightly frosty civility and general enquiries as to the state of eachother's health. To be honest it's all a bit much for me...can't handle speaking to him when I have so much else on my mind.
Sue has given me friday and monday off as annual leave cos I was fucked up in work today...too much on my mind and very little sleep.
And I seem to have fallen in love.
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I hope your eyes are ok hun :-(. That really sucks. Sorry I can't be there to come visit you in hospital- unless the nhs make you wait for ages in which case I'll be there with the traditional grapes! I'm sorry to here about Allan. It sounds like he was quite naive. Funny how (in my experience) when you say to guys 'you won't get anywhere with me, I'm nuts' they just want you more. I guess being in love is a good thing.. it's also a confusing painful thing... I hope you are in love with someone nice who will look after you and help you be strong. Everyone deserves that :-)
oh you would love him chris, his wife certainly does. of course he is a back stabbing bastard but you cant have everything
:-( you don't like making things easy for yourself do you?! I'm not gonna tell you to avoid, or be careful, or to put yourself and your health first for once.. because I'd be wasting my time wouldn't I?
i don't understand why you have so much contact with pete when a) you split up and b) it upsets both of you.
i also don't understand how you could hurt allan more- you split up with him, so how can he get hurt again?
I used to think it was ok to screw around with married men. Now I understand how much it would destroy me if Andy had an affair. I'd never inflict that on anyone. I know I am sounding overly self riteous with that statement, but I mean it.
It's not what you think Chris...Peter is just bitter and angry because his mate fell in love with me.
He is separated from his wife and is getting a divorce.
oh okay... still sounds too complicated! xxx
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