Back after an absence

Its been a hard couple of weeks.
Details of which I am not going to go into...but I've finally got my Christmas shopping done...I hate late night shopping it sucks.
Sam has gone crazy..Poor Sam, but at least he's alive.
As to stress and things that are bad for me...I've been trying my best, but everything is fucked up at the moment...the life I have right now is not exactly stress free...about the opposite in fact full of heartache and pain and stress and nasty shit.
So I'm trying to look after myself, the food and insulin is getting there, the (occasional) smoking, spliff and tiny bit of speed isn't, but helps to relieve the stress. I'm careful with the speed, and it's not all the time, just occasionally...the smoking I only do when I'm out, the spliffs...every now and again, and I seem to have managed to give up alcopops and have cut right down on my drinking altogether.
So you see, what I'm doing is not that bad...I intend to kick the smoking when things are less stressful.
I haven't had unecessary chocolate for well over 4 weeks now the only stuff I've had is when my blood sugar goes low.