Going nowhere

I thought things were going ok, despite all the hard stuff I've had to deal with over the past few weeks. It seems misery hasn't finished with me yet tho.
I don't know whats wrong with me.
I couldn't get Pete out of my head before...its like he still has a hold on me even now, even tho I don't love him, he's still influencing my mind.
I don't want that...I want to be abl to concentrate on the things that I want NOW. Like Gary, and my health and getting better after my eye op, and my job.
I suppose it will take time.