successes (if only little ones)

I did it, I went to the gym after work and I've just written my list of people I need to buy presents for, haven't quite sorted out what I'm going to buy them yet, but I'll sort that out later. God, not too much later tho because christmas is creeping up upon us really fast. Only one pay day left and then I'm skint for another year.
But anyway, I feel kinda proud of myself that I did two of the little tasks I set myself yesterday. I know they are only really little things, but the little things build up into big things. I really do need to clear the crap out of my room and do some of the washing thats sitting in a heap on my floor, so that will be a task for tomorrow, along with getting up early and finding a hit man to deal with my mother. Sorry that was a joke, but she is doing my nut tonight.

Ok, so tomorrows little tasks...
1. Tidy my room.
2. Get up early ie before 9
3. Spend at least an hour trawling the internet for Jobs (we'll move onto the job centre when I feel a bit more comfortable around people.

I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not getting all agoraphobic again like I was a few years back, having panic attacks and shit just leaving the house, and near hysterics whenever I was forced into a crowded place, I'm just a bit nervy in places I don't know when there's lots of people about. It will get better.

I have a doctors appointment on wednesday. I can't remember if I mentioned that or not. Wednesday was the earliest one I could get, I run out of pills on tuesday night, see what the doctor says about getting more. I'm not too sure, I don't know if they are helping or not, now at this moment I am ok, but last week, well you know how I was if you've been reading this. I'll talk to Dr Hare and tell her what I have been like.