The wanderer returns

I'm back, although I didn't do much wandering apart from trying to get from the hotel to Hard rock Cafe, a walk that should have taken 5 - 10 mins and actually took 45. Not my fault incidentally, Hab has no sense of direction lol.
It was good fun tho, good to see old sci fi regulars again and meet a few others face to face, that I hadn't met before. Was quite impressed with myself that I managed the whole weekend without imbibing a single drop of alcohol, and still managed to enjoy myself and not get too depressed. The black cloud that had been bugging me all week had dispersed somewhat when I woke on friday morning, I guess I just had too much logistical stuff to think about and the excitement I'd been feeling about going to Manchester came back with a vengeance. Jack sent me a text telling me to enjoy myself and get wasted for him because he couldn't go, and I managed to achieve 50% of the instruction.
The sci fi crowd are a bunch of lovely lovely people and I think everyone had a good time, Pete certainly did, he seems to have this ability to fit in with anyone, and was chatting away and taking the piss like he'd known them all for years, some of them he'd only met once and most he'd only met this time round. I am more reserved. I don't think I am in real life, as I am in the chat room...Pete fits in anywhere, I tend to feel out of place, even if I'm with people I have known for years (except with my closest friends). I guess I am just one of nature's outsiders, which says more about me that the people around me - You get out of a situation what you put into it, and I find it difficult to be 'naturally' garrulous. A 'Sister Loquacious' I am not.
But I had a really good time anyway, sometimes sitting and observing can be more fun than joining in, especially when surrounded by people who are gradually getting drunker and making complete fools of themselves LOL. Oh and I got to see Joeys newly pierced nipples too - and very sexy they were! Almost makes me want to get one of mine done...Almost. Well, we'll see.
At the moment I am feeling a little ambiguous in how I feel, I can be quite happy one minute and quite down the next, depends what I'm thinking about. I realised when I got in that I hardly spoke to Pete at all on the train home. I'll put that down to tiredness, cos I am completely shattered and need to be in bed. I'm going to leave going to sleep until a bit later tho, cos otherwise I will sleep and wake up later then won't be able to sleep tonight. I am intending to go to the gym tomorrow morning, but as I said that every day last week and didn't go once I'm not holding my breath. I really need to sort my head out, make a few positive decisions for a change and get myself on some sort of path.
Time to go now anyway, tea's ready and going cold... Might be back later, might not, we'll see.