Running away

I'm always running away.
In my dreams, I'm ALWAYS running away from something.
It might be police cars, or flying galleons, or aliens, or freaky flying numbers made of ice, or a damned terrifying scarecrow that fires fireballs at me, but it always something.
The guitaring and singing seems to have ground to a halt for a while, mainly because evryone is fucked up about something at the moment.
I have had a bit of a bad couple of months with the old depression thing...got a bit agorophobic , so the doctor changed my medication...I've gone from citalopram to seroxat. Been on it a few weeks now, nearly a month, and it seems to be doung me some good...still have the odd wobbly phase, but I'm better than I was by a long shot. I'm wondering if the seroxat is what is causing the mad dreams, because they really are very mad, and very vivid...Gary is always amazed at the detail when I tell him what I drempt.
Anyway, dreams not withstanding things appear to be improving mentally.
Gary's dad was diagnosed with throat cancer. Gary is convinced he's going to die, but I think this is more because he hasn't seen his dad for nearly 2 years and he feels guilty that he hasn't made more of an effort to get to know him. By all accounts his dad is a bit of a bastard, and having abandoned Gary and Mave when Gary was about 2 and not bothering to try and be a dad...well, I don't think that Gary has anything to feel guilty about. Personally I think he had a lucky escape, seeing how fucked up Terry is having had his dad around when he was growing up, but I cab understand how Gary feels that he missed out on something. Mave is a wonderful mum, and from what I can gather, his Nan was a wonderful giving person too, but Gary did miss out on a huge male influence in his life.
Anyway, Gary and Terry are taking the opportunity of their dad's illness to spend more time with him and rediscover their relationship, which is fair enough. I think it's good for them all.
Apart from that nothing has really changed.
I love the dress by the way Chris...it's beautiful...can't wait to see you on the day!