Extreme stupidity and selfishness.

This afternoon I took too much insulin.
It made me very sick and I collapsed on the landing with one of the worst hypoglycaemic attacks I have ever had. I was screaming with hallucinations and my Mum and Dad had to hold me down and force feed me glucose until I was lucid enough to to be abe to eat.
I am extremely unproud of myself. I frightened them badly and I'm deeply ashamed and disgusted at my total selfishness, it's unforgivable.
They don't know exactly why I had the hypo. It's the last time I will ever do anything so stupid and thoughtless and wrong.
Self harm is one thing, doing it when it has that effect on other people is entirely different. If they hadn't been there I could have died.
I disgust myself, and I despise myself for doing it.
Never again.
There are no excuses, no reasonable explainations, as Pete said on friday...I am a selfish bitch. Proof at last.