Allan Part 2

Ok. I realised that I'm kinda attracted to him. Allan that is. And he likes me too. And he came and sat opposite me today and ate banana's and sucked lollypops. It was a weird day. And then we went to the pub. And we had a long talk, four and a half hours of long talk, and I told him everything...how I feel about Pete, what I do to myself when I'm depressed, everything. It felt good to talk to him.
And we kissed. Quite a lot. And it felt good, and kinda bad at the same time because of Pete and stuff...it's only been a week since we split up properly, and this is gonna hurt him even more.
It sounds quite bad...like maybe Allan was taking advantage of me, but it's not like that at all...he's sweet and gentle and the shyest guy I've ever met, and I wanted to kiss him before he even tried, so..yeah well. A very odd day.
Allan knows about me, and knows I'm fragile and what I've been going through recently, so it's not like I'm leading him on or anything, or I haven't told him stuff that could affect us. He knows what he's got himself into, and we get on...amazingly well. So yeah...weirdness all round.