Doubts
I'm supposed to be going to manchester soon to see some of the UK sci fi gang. Thing is, I'm not sure I want to. I mean I love these guys to bits, and I get on really well with them, but I always end up feeling left out and like an outsider. Not just with them, with everyone at the moment, I don't seem to fit anywhere, and I can see the meet up in my head, everyone enjoying themselves and having a really great time, and then me sitting in the corner, watching everyone else having fun, on my own feeling dejected and miserable and probably trying not to cry. I had a minor panic attack just thinking about it tonight. Maybe it would be better if I passed on this one, I don't want to bring the mood of the whole party down.
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T'is joey,
you ent gonna make us miserable katie. honest, and you won't me sat on yer own or on the outside. honest, i got no real other distractions apart from a very healthy lookin bottle of vodka...but you gotta have summat nice to look at when you're pissed, and if you don't come you'll miss out on me trying to chat ye up in slurred yorkshire! anyway...speak to me of this, cos i am convinced it'll be the opposite...real big convinced. i'm willing to bet...whatever you want
ah joey petal, it ain't something thats everyone elses fault, just me, don't seem to fit in at all whatever I do at the mo. Only places I feel safe are at mine and with Pete. I'm going to come tho, and I'm going to try my best to enjoy myself, cos if I don't, then this mental foolish problem I have won't ever go away.
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