Pete

I walked home from Pete's. I've just got in now and I'm frozen.
I feel numb. We talked a bit, mainly long difficult silences tho because I cannot talk, not to him, not to anyone.
He's thinking things over, so am I, but I can't help but feel that he would be better off without me, he needs someone that doesn't treat him like shit because she can't express what she's feeling and what she's thinking in her head. I don't want to lose him, I don't want to break up with him, I love him to pieces and I don't know how I'd cope without him, but he needs to be happy, and as I've said before, I just drag him down and I don't want to do that any more.
I hope he makes the right decision for him.