Busy Busy Busy

Busy week next week. Aside from the usual working and going to the pictures (see AWAKE it's great). I have a 3 hour seminar and selection exercises to do for a promotion for work...Numeracy and Literacy...shouldn't be a problem I've passed tghe damned things about 3 times already. And then on Friday I have the op on my eye that I was supposed to have last month...Finally. I feel better about it this time round, so hopefully all will go well. The following week, if I pass the selection excercises, I'll have to do a telephone role play, and an interview. Joy of joys,but it's a promotion and gets me away from filling in forms forever if I get it.

I'm stressing a bit about my birthday. I know it's only April, but I keep getting paranoid and thinking no one is going to turn up, ir that peopel will drop out at the last minute..It' wouldn't surprise me, and I don't really want my birthday this year to end up like my birthday last year...I got quite upset that my camping trip got cancelled (not that anyone noticed) and my birthday night out was a nightmare disaster, and I ended up going home and crying myself to sleep. Hence I'm a little wary of the big plans that we're making in case it all goes wrong and I end up spending my 30th birthday on my own. I'm putting my faith in Hab and Joey and everyone. Hab seems to be doing most of the organising and stuff...Thanks Hab you're a wonderful friend! And everyone says they're really looking forward to it... I've just got this tiny worm of doubt in the back of my mind...Didn't people say that last year. Things were different then of course...Things were more fucked up...I think...just about anyway...A hell of a lot has happened in the last year it's frightening, sometimes I can't keep track.

Anyway, yeah, paranoid, nervous, generally quite happy tho. My mate is doing well, she seeems a lot happier and more stable the last few weeks. Hopefully she's over the worst.

Got to go really as it's getting late and I'm up early tomorrow o do overtime. Lovely.