All a big Joke

Apart from Joey and Chris, and Pete and Hab, and maybe Jack(but I don't know really what he's thinking and stuff), I feel like my friends think I'm a joke, and that all this stuff with Pete is insignificant and daft.
Beth, didn't seem that interested when I told her we'd split up, and Charley actually laughed...laughed and said, when are you getting back together? To be honest thats the reaction I've had from most people, the girls and Bob at work anyway, all said 'what again?'. I suppose I must be quite good at looking not very upset, cos no one except Joey, Chris, Pete and Hab seems remotely concerned about my mental health. Phil, him I haven't heard from at all. I guess he must know, because he spends a lot of time with Pete, and I reckon Pete would have told him. Maybe not, but he told all his new work mates so I reckon he will have told Phil. And yet I haven't heard anything, if the roles had been reversed, and He'd been newly singlfied, I'd have phoned him or texted him to see if he was ok and offer a shoulder to cry on kinda thing if he wanted it. Is it too much to ask for just one person to say 'I'm here if you need me'? You know cos I know Chris and joey are there, and Hab, but is like...they are too far away for a hug, and yes Pete is there and seems ok with the hugging thing, but it still feels a bit wierd and he's like too close to it all to give a really objective opinion on it all, and I just need someone that isn't that close to it all to give me a hug and tell me it's ok. Is that selfish?