The Tiv

soooo... went out on Friday night with Pete and one of his mates, Gary. We ended up in Buckley, yes thats Bucle, north Wales (or Bwcle for the welsh spellers amongst you), in a club called The Tiv (The Tivoli). Its a bit like the Krazy House in Liverpool except smaller, and it closes at 1am, but it's a good little club. We had a good night and danced lots, it had that kinda Krazy House atmosphere where you kinda feel at home as soon as you walk in, and before long I was dancing around in my bra and fluttering my eyelashes at the girls. Pete doesn't mind me fluttering my eyelashes as long as I don't aim them at the lads lol. Anyway, fun was had all round, we got in about 2am, and then of course I had an attack of insomnia...seem to be getting a lot of those recently... and when I finally did get to sleep, I kept waking up, and THEN, to top it all, my dad woke me up this morning removing the bath from the bathroom cos he's doing it up. Have you any idea the amount of noise that a cast iron bath makes when it is being repeatedly belted with a hammer??? 'Quite a lot' doesn't come close. I got up, got dressed and went for a small swim and a therapeutic laze in the hydrotherapy pool at the gym. My neck still aches from moshing too much last night tho...

Weddings

My cousin is getting married. Next month in Liverpool. It looks like it's going to be another family do that I'll have to go to on my own again, because Pete has probably got other arrangements with a friend of his. Thing is I'm kinda dreading it, because if Pete doesn't come with me, I'm going to be the only one from our side of the family not part of a couple, and I hate weddings generally at the best of times, I'll have to sit there and field barbed questions about ' you haven't got your boyfriend with you then?' and pitying looks from people who think I'm single, and possibly even trying to fend of desperate men who think a wedding is the best place to pull. Fuck, I'll probably even end up dancing with my Mum.
The more I think about it, the less I want to go, but I know I should, I haven't seen my cousin for years, and we used to get on really well. It would be nice to see her happy instead of the nervous gibbering wreck she has been around her dad, who chipped away at her self confidence since she was tiny until she had none whatsoever. So yes, I'll go to the wedding, if only to offer my support and congratulations.
I will probably spend most of it sitting in the corner feeling uncomfortable tho.

Friends

So... I feel a bit like I'm losing touch with some of my friends. Joey has moved from AOL cos of getting broadband from her mums work, so I haven't seen her for a few days (online I mean), Hab, well I don't know whats going on in Hab's head at the moment, I guess things haven't been the same since, well things got said and lets leave it at that, but he seems to be in a kinda self destructive mood at the moment, and Jack...Jack doesn't make an effort to contact me anymore, only when I contact him does he reply, so I guess he's either too busy or he's not arsed anymore. :::sigh::: things just aren't the same anymore. It's got to the point where I'm coming online just to read web comics, and thats it, I'm not talking to people... I read peoples blogs, but that only works if they update them, so I feel like I'm losing track of where peoples lives are going and how they are doing. Maybe it's me. Maybe I'm to blame.

Happy Valentines day

So one year ago today my nan died, so I've been in a bit of a sad mood today. You shouldn't have to cry on valentines day, but I did, a couple of times. I guess it will get better as time goes on, but I didn't expect it to affect me like this. I guess I just miss her.
I went to Pete's this evening and he made me feel better, and he seemed to understand why I was a bit down. He's good like that, a Pete hug can make the evils of the world just disappear...

Valentines

I miss you.
Torn away
So suddenly,
Before I had a chance
To say goodbye.
I wasn't there to see you,
Or to comfort those I love
When you passed on.
The memories are there
Still bright, but overshadowed
By the later times,
When you weren't you
And pain was all I saw.
You are at rest now,
At peace,
And the bad memories
That fill my head,
Will fade.
I will remember you
As you were, so full of life,
So kind and caring.
I loved you,
And I miss you.

My Nain (grandmother), Margaret Aline Mander, 5th Feb 1916-14th Feb 2004

Gang Show

Soooo, I went to the local district Gang Show tonight (you know, cubs scouts and scout leaders and guides making fools of themselves on stage). It was good, but probably only because my brother was in it, and Caroline his fiancee. That was the reason we went...to have a laugh at them both. Believe me you've never lived until you've seen my brother (six foot six and built like a small tank) as one of the seven dwarves...green tights and pointy hat and all... and later as Robin, red shirt green shorts, yellow cape and white tights...just like Rodney trotter from the classic fools and horses episode. Oh and then as Stay Puft marshmallow man...Ahh it was great. The all singing all dancing cubs, scouts guides and leaders were quite good too, with a few horrendous, pant wettingly funny costumes...Like the pink and blue toothbrushes, and the men in tights (picture beer bellies in white spandex and a tutu and you'll know what I mean).
Anyway it's all good fun and the workthat goes into it all is phenomenal...

Nothing to declare

Had a ordinary few days. same thing happening as usual, except pancakes...me and Pete made pancakes yesterday which was fun, apart from that just the same old work/sleep routine with sprinklings of going round to Petes. That and finding a few websites on the internet history on our puter that I'm damned sure wasn't me. I'm not going into details on that tho. No more trawling through the temporary internet files for me! And I was only looking for a site that Hab sent me as a link a few weeks ago...

Manchester

Heh, great fun. Lots of drink and silliness and laughs had by all. Fire alarms at 5am was a little grumpifying for those who had just got off to sleep and were very rudely awakened, but apart from that it was a good weekend. Shot glass chess is a great game, especially when you're quite drunk to start off with and your pieces move randomly around the board taking the opposing pieces, but I blame Lee for my drunken chess playing because he made me drink the baileys and aftershock concoction, after that anything goes lol.
Me and Pete had a heart to heart about the nipple piercing, and he doesn't like it, but I kinda understand why, and I think he kinda understands why I wanted it, and it's not a major problem so everything is alright there. Joey's are looking good, and she says that mine looks well for a week old...the swimming seems to be doing it good, and i doesn't hurt at all now unless I catch it on things which doesn't happen often...it's amazing, you don't really notice your nipples until you have one pierced, then you know exactly where it/they are in relation to the rest of the world! Anyway, it's looking good, a hell of a lot better than my navel did at this stage...too much cleaning of the navel I think made it prone to infection so it took ages to heal. Anyway, I'm prattling so i will go, probably still a little bit drunk, only a little bit tho lol...