Endings

It's over.
I don't know what I'm feeling at the moment.
Regret definately, misery certainly, pain and loss, love, fear.
But mainly I just feel numb, and hollow and stretched thin.
I've wondered and doubted for so long whether we were meant to be together, but now it's over I wonder if we were ever meant to be apart.
I'm lost. Aimless and weak and pathetic, and I can only imagine how Pete must be feeling, he never had any doubts about what he wanted, but in the end he couldn't be with someone who wasn't sure if she wanted to be with him.
It hurts, like a physical lump of pain in my chest.
I think I have made a huge mistake, because I miss him already.
I don't think there is any coming back from this tho. I feel drained. I will sleep and maybe things will seem brighter in the morning. Maybe.