Worrying

I might be being paranoid, I may be letting my overactive imagination get the better of me, but I can't help thinking about stuff. I still haven't heard from my friend, and being an internet friend I have no way of finding out how he is except by email or text/phoning his mobile. I keep telling myself he's just been kept in longer in hospital than he thought he would, but I can't help wondering if he's really ok. If he is seriously ill, or God forbid, if he didn't make it through the op, we, his friends have no way of finding out. I know inside that I'm being a bit fatalistic and paranoid and alarmist, it is in my nature to be that way, but it makes me realise what a tentative thread holds us together, especially the friends I have from the internet....if something happens to any one of them, I might not ever know about it. The words on the screen that I take for granted, and the occasional meets we have... they mean a lot to me, they are good friends, and no less good for being internet people lol. maybe I should explain what I mean... we get so many warnings about people... never trust people you meet on the internet, they're all wierdoes. But I'm an internet person, I'm not a wierdo (please refrain from commenting on that), logic tells us that not everyone on the internet is a wierdo, and experience shows us that it's true. The friends I've met and met up with have all been amazing, wonderful people (apart from the odd one who weren't exactly wierdoes, at least not axe wielding ones). And how is meeting someone on the internet any worse than meeting up with a stranger in a night club? Thats where I met my boyfriend, and I am sure more women and men are attacked by people they met in a nightclub than they are by people they met from the internet. But I have digressed slightly. My point is that at any moment, any one of us could just disappear from the internet altogether, and the bonds and friendships that have been built over the months and often years of internet chat would just be left hanging, friends left wondering and ignorant of where they went and what has happened.
AH fuck, I'm just depressing myself more...there's nothing I can do about it after all, short of giving everyone I know all the numbers and email addresses of everyone I know with instructions to contact everyone just in case something happens to me. And I seriously doubt whether anyone else would consider doing the same. Its just not feasible or sensible. I'll just have to trust to good fortune and hope it extends to everyone in my circle of friends...Long life and good communications...