Developments

Well, after writing my blog last night I got talking to Joey, just about general stuff. Joey is 17, she's lovely and she's Gay, into piercings and tattoos and is currently doing her a-levels. While I was talking to her, Kelly came online and we started talking. We had a long chat (til 2 in the morning) about all sorts of stuff, the past, when we first met, how I felt when she stopped talking to me, how she felt about it all. It was good to get it all out in the open, and I think I've gained a friend out of it all. She did say that she was recently single, and that she had hoped that I would be too, but she understood that I was happy with Pete and left it at that. She has grown up a lot in the last 3 years, she has also sorted out her sexuality. When I first met her, she was newly bisexual, and I think a little confused...like bisexuality was the safe option...do you know what I mean? Now she seems to have worked out her place in life, and that is firmly on the gay side of the wall, unlike me who balances precariously on the top of the wall and gets the best of both worlds...lol, that's if I had ever had the nerve to go and fully explore my gay side, which I haven't...so I suppose, because I'm happy with Pete it adds up to being straight. I still fancy girls (sometimes), but I can't see me having a relationship with another woman, not unless something terrible happens between me and Pete...That I do not want to happen, it gives me nightmares!