Kelly

Well, I did what might turn out to be the wrong thing last night after posting my blog. I emailed Kelly (the girl I was talking about in case you were confused or hadn't guessed ). I just said that I hadn't forgotten her, asked what she was doing, and told her that I'd been worried when she stopped speaking to me. I got a reply today. I must say she sounds a lot more stable than she did three years ago (well as much as you can tell from an email.) She is at college and working, she's developed a social life (cos she didn't have one apart from picking up strange women on the internet (i.e. Me!) and she claims to have gained a lot more confidence. I think she must have to have emailed me after all this time. Worryingly she also emailed me her mobile number. I refuse to read too much into that, I automatically jump to odd conclusions and I'm not going to this time. I did however make it abundantly clear in my reply that I am attached to my gorgeous boyfriend, and am really happy...i.e. not remotely on the market, just in case that's what she was thinking. Aparently she goes to the Krazy House quite a lot, so I'll probably bump into her sooner or later. I'll keep you posted on developements with this. I have to admit that since I got the email, I've been brooding over it quite a lot, I don't feel so bad now, because she did sound happy in the email, like she's getting her life together at last. I forgot to mention last night that she had been agoraphobic for two years. Two years that from the sound of it she spent locked in her bedroom. On reflection I don't think I should have got involved with her in the first place, she didn't need me messing with her head on top of all her other problems (her parents had also made her depressed by being funny about her sexuality.) What's done is done tho, and it seems that things have turned out ok in the end.
I haven't slept very well the last few nights, worrying about Kelly is part of it, but I'm also worrying about the job I applied for and whether I'll get an interview, I have a week off at the end of september during which I'm planning to go camping for a bit with Pete, and I'm worrying about that too, mainly the logistics of getting to north wales with lots of camping gear on public transport. I'm just a natural worrier. The camping trip will turn out fine, if I don't get an interview, I'll just have to keep trying, and Kelly? Well like I said it seems to be ok, and if it's not then I'm sure it will sort itself out.
Now I'm tired, so I think I'll go to bed...