work sucks

all i have t say really

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Things Unsaid

There's a feling in the air at the moment. I can't explain it properly, it's like fear or expectation, like the prickly energy feeling you getbefore a thunderstorm where everything seems fresh and slightly bigger and brighter than usual, but yet seems so ancient and uncomprehensible.

I don't know if it's just me that feels it, but people seem to be acting...differently, lke they can sense omething, but they don't know what. There's a lot of nceness...thats the only way I can describe it...Today I saw a couple of teenage girls helping an old lady pack her shopping bag...I know they didn't know her, and she wasn't a relative, cos I heard them talking just before they offered to help her. Peopel are being overly polite to eachother, holding doors, not pushing in front of one another t get on the bus, even the counter staff in burger king were friendly, smiling abd helpful...it's just not normal...it's like the run up to christmas, except people are getting more friendly and polite instead of more rude and ignorant.

Maybe it's just my frame of mind...last night I dreamed that angels walked the earth, and there was an end to all the pain and suffering, and everyone was freed, souls were free, and there was only light. It was...a good dream I think.

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END DAYS

CAST DOWN THE WORLD!

WHAT USE IS IT'S LURE?
JUDGEMENT COMES
FOR THE TAINTED AND PURE,
BREAK OPEN THE SKY
AND FEEL HEAVEN'S LIGHT
BARE YOUR SOUL TO THE VOID
AND WATCH IT TAKE FLIGHT

8.8.8/42

il pleut

Aujourd'hui il pleut beaucoup.

Or for the none french speakers in the world, today it rained a lot. Or at least it did when I was outside in it.

So I won the silver dragon rings I bid on yesterday. I was the only bidder so won them for the grand sum of one penny. Remains to be sn if the seller will actually cough up for that price, but p&p was six quid odd, so all in all I think I got a bit of a bargain, if they turn up.

So I've bid on some other gothic dragony stuff...it migt do for mum for her birthday, in part at least, as she likes that sort of stuff, and if not then I can always keep it for myself.

I need to not get addicted to ebay again...or I will spend a fortune.

I may treat myself to something nice nearer my birthday, now I've found the section with all the antique silver jewellery.....

Still tired. Not been sleeping well lately.

8.8.8/43

need sleep

tired very tired
just bought som stuff on ebay that i saw whn looking for a present for my mum.
now i need bed

8.8.8/44

Improvement

Well, my eye seems to have improved somewhat since sunday. Still can't read my screen without the aid of my magnifier, but I can at least see more than fuzzy blobs of light and dark. I can just about read the letters o my keyboard, but everything is in a dreamlike soft focussy fuzziness. It's better than it was tho.

Mum had a quiet word with Chris yesterday. About the christening. Turns out she wasn't exceptionally happy about it being one of those weekends either, it being her 60th and all. Anyway he's going to try and get a differendate nearer the end of september, so Mum said to plan my plans and do what I wish for my birthday.. So I shall.

It's all politics anyway the Christening...they are only doing it so that they stand a chance of getting Jenny into StSaviours school which is just around the corner, and loosely attached to st saviours church. Kids attached to the church by strings f holy water tend to stand a better chance of getting into the school. Apparently you have to start thinking about these kinds of things now, otherwise you end up with shit schools. And yes, Jenny-wren was a week old, yesterday.

8.8.8/45

Happy Birthday

I am officially cancelling my birthday.

Ednburgh's not happenning now anyway, and apparently my brother and his wife just HAVE to have Jenny's christening on either 31st August..My mum's 60th birthday weekend, or 7th september, my birthday weekend. That buggers up mum's birthday plans and any plans I might have made too.

So I'm not bothering.

Who gives a fuck anyway?

8.8.8/47

Waiting

Very little if any improvement in my eye. Just got to wait and hope.

Tried to get a decent pair of prescription glasses today but the opticians won't touch me with a bargepole. I got some frameless reading glasses, and wired the lenses to the front of a normal pair, they look better than wearing two pairs, but it's not ideal... worked out that I need about a +8.0 prescription, based on the fact that I'm wearing two +3.50, and they're not quite strong enough..

8.8.8/49

Jennifer Abigail

My neice, Jennifer Abigail Hunt was born on monday at 12:28 pm, weighing 8 pounds. She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.

On tuesday I woke up o find I had lost the sight in my right eye. The doctor said that it sometimes happens after operations that I have had. Basically little blood vesels have formed around the incsion they put in my eye to drainthe oil out. The blood vessels are weak, and have leaked in my eye. It's like dropping ink into water, the ink spreads out and clouds the water. Thats basically why I can't see. The blood is clouding my eyesight and I can only see bits of light and dark and vaue colours. He said it might clear up b itself, if not they'll have to go in and clean it out.

It means I'm down to one very blurry eye, and am having to wear two pais of really strong reading glasses to see my way about.

I feel like I'm being punished for something.

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