Over the hill?

I went to the pub with Pete today. Just a quiet drink, I dunno, today it seemed like he was expecting something to happen, he didn't say anything, or try anything, just kept looking at me the way he used to look at me when we were seeing eachother. On the bus on the way home, I was thinking about it, and it made me sad. And then I got to thinking about me, and how I want something to happen with a woman, and how maybe I'm getting to old to start going out and pulling girls. I feel like I wasted half my life in being in denial, and when I finally did admit to myself that I fancied women, I was too scared and unsure of myself to do anything about it. And when I finally did do something about it, I got cold feet and ran scared, (and hurt her badly because I was too much of a coward to give it even a tiny chance). And I wonder if I can do that? Can I really start over and do what my heart is telling me, or should I just take the easy option and be single forever? I can't see myself with another man, not yet anyway. Not even Pete at the moment, and that hurts to say. I like spending yime with him, I just...I don't know what I want.